Depressing Mind


There are times when I can’t enjoy things. Sometimes I’m just sad or depressed. Often not really knowing why. It can be something what have happened or what didn’t happen. These time can be consuming mentally and socially. And even if I knew what the problem is there I have no strength to make the changes needed to ease the burden. I have no diagnosed depression or any mental illnesses that I know of. But I believe that there are times in everyones lifes when they feel depressed. Often these times comes with big changes in life. Some are positive changes and others are negative. 

Positive changes can be new job, marriage, having a baby or finishing school. Every one of  these life events can trigger some  sort of chaos in mind. New things bring stress with it, new responsibilities and maybe the need to learn new skills. 

Negative changes and events too much work, financial problems, include unembloyment, accidents, sickness, divorce, forceful moving to a different city (a problem often overlooked by parents when moving with children), death of a relative. All these events cause a injury in mental health. It’s not like a broken leg, which you could see, but never the less mind is broken. Mind needs time to heal. Many times talking is one of the best treatments for mental injuries. 

Mental stress stack up like being covered with dust. At first you might not even notice it but as time goes and more mental stress comes you find yourself sad, powerless and depressed. And maybe you don’t know why. Sadness comes and goes and it’s part of life. It just can be so overwhelming. I just hope we could take the time to process the changes and crisises and to mourn our losses. I hope we could understand that our minds needs to be taken care of just like our bodies. 

There are ways to prevent too much mental stress and to ease the mind from stress. About that later.

What do you think? Do you have same kind of feelings?

How to get a pinup painting of me?


Have you seen those painting of pinup girls? You propably have, I bet. Well Pinupme gets you a pinup painting of you or someone you know. You may choose the setting, clothing, pose and pretty much everything else, I just need some photos of the face of the subject. Everything else can be done without photo reference of the subject. There can be something you really want added to the painting, like your dog or car, then of cource photo reference is needed.

When the general idea is set. Like doing a sailor themed pinup with mildy sexy pose. Then I’ll do some sketches of the pose and you may choose some of those. Then I make some variations of those you chose. Then I’ll refine the sketch and add detail. Then we choose colors and additional details. Then I paint some color sketches for you to choose from, after the color is chosen, I’ll start the final painting, Then I’ll show some of the painting to you so you know you get what you really want. Everything is done digitally so you get the final painting as a file right after the payment is done. 

The theme you choose can be anything. From pirates to space, work related to leisure, from fantasy to real life. Just make your dreams come to life in this pinup painting. I’ll make it happen with you. 

Painting a Pinupme is really a great process for me and for the you. I really encourage you to think about getting a pinup painting of you or someone you know. 

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The constant fight between being enough and getting better


There are two sides fighting in me all the time. I do tell people who visit me and need advice or help in their lifes that their life as it is is precious and enough. But when I look a me, in the other hand I think that I’m enough, but in the other hand I need to get better. Better as an artist, as a man, as a husband, as a parent, as a friend, as a musician or a singer as a choir leader. I have this need to get better or be better or do better. I do believe that the need to do better makes me better but I do want to think that where I am no, is fundamentaly enough. That is what I want to message other people too. They are enough.

There is always a possibility to get better or be more or do more. Sometimes I tend to try too much and be too much or I do too much to get better in a short amount of time. It can be very stressful. That’s why I write this post. So this over-achieving could slow down. In me and maybe in others who need to slow down a little. I know that there is so much to do in life and so little time. There is always tomorrow or next year. Well when you start thinking that way you may drift to procrastination and that’s no good either. There have to be a balance. But how to achieve that. And now I start to think how to rest most effictively so I could do more work and gain best results. That’s no good.

Being enough as a person and doing enough with the strenght you have should be enough. You should be enough for the people around you and for the rest of us too. Developing your skills and craft and working hard should be something you really want and it shouldn’t be a measurement for how good person you are. There is this constant fight going on still. Even in something what I think of fun time and leasurement like gaming have achiements and skill development.

There has to be a time and place for total relaxation. A state of mind when you don’t have to do anything or have to look after anyone or have any responsibilities what so ever. I really see difficulties to get this state especially with single-parents who have small children or with people who have many responsibilities in work and other parts of their life, like taking care of their parents. It’s like a rubber band which is constantly streched and never released, it’ll eventually break.

I hope everyone have the opportunity to have responsibility-free time and if you know someone who hasn’t please help them out. Sometimes you only need a little help to carry on with daily chores.

Other thing that helps to get away from responsibilities and stress is other people. It’s easier to relax when you are surrounded with a group of friends. This is why I really encourage my wife to go out with her girlfriends. It’s really important to loosen that rubber band occasionally. If your friend or loved one is really stressed and don’t have the strength to go out and hang with friends, please advice her/him to go anyway. It’s usually refreshing especially when you have small children in the house.

It’s sometimes difficult to find that balance between knowing you are enough the way you are and trying more and getting better at doing your stuff. It sure is important to say to people that they indeed are important and to think that you are important too.

Two step solution for your problems


My day job is all about listening. I listen about difficulties in life, finance, mental illnesses, family, parenthood, relationships, faith, crisis and many other topics which troubles people. I have found the best way to help people. I’ll reveal it to you. It’s no magic but it’s certainly difficult to master. It’s a two step solution for many problems. This is one thing everyone should learn at least a little. I talk to people who has no other place to go to talk. Maybe they have difficulties to get to know people, or have so hard times that they don’t have the strenght to see other people. Or maybe they have issues in mental health like fears or anxiety. I try to help everyone who need help. But what’s the best help I can give. I’m not trying to be any better than these people I see. I’m not trying to say that I’m something excellent and above others. I just want to give you an advice to help others. 

Troubles in life come to all of us. Troubles in life don’t ask and don’t make an appointment. Troubles come and make life difficult or nearly impossible to bear. When troubles start to stack, then a person can be emotionally and psycically drained. Then he/she is in a state where things are difficult and there is no strength to do something about them. What to do then?

We live in a world where almost everybody can contact someway to millions of people in the world. Well it’s technically possible. People still have to learn to do it and aqcuire the equipment to do it. And there is many people who can’t see, hear or are in a state where reaching out can’t be done. And there is this one thing: “am I enough, why would people care about me”. If relatives don’t care why would total strangers care. Loneliness is my peoples common sickness. People are so alone and the loneliness can’t be undone by reading posts in social media. 

The people I see are commonly lonely. Not always alone. You can be lonely in a crowd. They are alone with their difficulties. No one listen, really listen. People can say that they have difficulties in releationships or parenting or finance to their friends. But rarely you can really say everything. And this is say from my own experience and in the context I live in. You may have totally different point of view. 

Many worries in life can be solved with a simple thing. And this is the key. This is the thing I’m been holding you here. The following has to happen in a trustworthy environment, preferably in a quiet and closed room with no interuptions. 
1. The one who has problems: talk and trust the listener!

2. The one who helps: listen and never ever judge!
After doing this you may have the same problems but they are in the right proportions and you find new ways to tackle them. The trust is very important and not judging is equally very important. There is many things that require more guidance and you should seek help for those if needed. If this is helpful to you please share the knowledge. Of cource you may ask for more information here. 

How to communicate

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Sometimes I feel that the world is ill. Sometimes I feel the world is beautiful. Sometimes I feel the world is still. The world is big and the world is small. We are important and we are nothing at the same time. I’m important and I’m nothing. Knowing that gives me peace.

There isn’t anything more beautiful and wonderful than a human being in this world. But no one isn’t more important than other human. It really fascinates me how we look so different and the same and still equally beautiful. And here I really think that every single human being is beautiful in it’s own right. Yes we could discuss about beauty standards and who look beautiful in my opinion. It’s rather long topic but to put it short I think that human being is beautiful in every stage of its life. This is something people forget. I really don’t think that making self look beautiful is bad. Quite the opposite. We choose how we look and that’s good.

There is so much going on in our heads. And that makes the world seem ill or beautiful or something else. Yes there are many things to be done about crisis, poverty, racism, sickness, greed… list is long, but we can do something about those and still see the world as a beautiful place. We just need to open our eyes, open our hearts and listen. Usually happiness is with friends and family.

Are we in a world that is ill or beautiful is really up to us. Do we do anything to get the world a better place. It doesn’t have to be in grand scale, maybe just within small community or a small town. And simply put, we should listen. Even it’s something we don’t want hear. Just listen. You don’t have to agree. Just listen and try to understand. Then you can tell your opinion. This is the way to good relationships, friendships and pretty much any communications.

Be the Art You Are! International Womens Day

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First I want to say my humble congratulations for all the women in the world. Your efforts, personalities, smiles, beauty, actions and all what you really are amazes me everytime. I am truly happy to live in a country where men and women are nearly equal in every way. There is much work to do in here and many other countries in the world. 

I have lived my life believing that men and women are both just as important. It’s difficult to understand that we are not considered as such in many places and in many minds. 

Equality doesn’t mean being the same. People aren’t all the same and we really shouldn’t. It doesn’t have to do anything about gender either. We should be happy for diversity of people here. It’s great that everyone is unique!

We should try to make the world more equal. We should try to help other in need. Women in many countries need help. Education is the best help we could give. There are many possibilities to help and we really should. 

I hope that your day will be excellent! I hope you are surrounded with good things and good people! I hope you are treated the way you deserve! 

You are unique, you are art! 

Be the art you are!

About looks


Yeah, I like womanly looks. I like looking at beautiful women and draw and paint them. That’s one thing I like about women. Appearance. But just one thing. Only one thing… of many other things. I really don’t like that so much about personality boils down to appearance. There is so much more than that. You surely know that. We live in a age where people can easily be judged by the looks. It’s quite easy. Making a judgement about a person from the looks.

We are taught that people judge you in matter of seconds. It’s common knowledge. This is wrong. No one should be judged in seconds, or minutes, or hours. Well… don’t judge at all. Just listen. Listen what she/he has to say. That’s a different subject and I’ll come to that later. Maybe… if I remember. So please ask if I don’t 🙂 We have this saying in Finland: same head in summer, same head in winter.

So looks. How you look can be important to you. And to other people who are looking at you of course. I just would like to live in a world, where your actions and personality could be liked in social media too. Personality is something you should be proud of.

Seeing a pretty woman please my eyes but seeing womans personality and thoughts please my heart.

I’m an artist, so I look at people… maybe longer than I should. When I meet people, more than I look, I listen… I listen their stories, their difficulties, their dreams, their fears.

You should try it. Just listen.

The story of you is enough

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There is so many feeling low these days. Feeling bad about themselves, feeling depressed, feeling that they aren’t good enough.

I’m been thinking why is that. Why are people having low self-esteem or feeling that they aren’t good enough, pretty enough, rich enough, strong enough, fit enough, etc. enough. Who are telling what is enough? Am I one reason someone is feeling bad of themselves? Does my behavior change the view people see themselves? Could I do something that would say people that they really are more than enough, pretty much perfect.

How do we judge ourselves and others really alters the way we see the world. Do we see numbers in peoples looks or the clothes they are wearing? Do we say that he is a better singer than she?

Can we look at a person and see no flaws?

I really want to.

There is so much good in people. There is so much more good than we can see in a lifetime. It’s easy to concentrate on flaws and bad things. It’s easy to see what’s wrong.

Why is that? Why it’s easy to see flaws in ourselves and in others? It can be something we want to develop in ourselves. And then it’s good to see our areas that need to be developed. There is nothing bad to get better at things, but could we think those areas as points of under development or points I won’t develop because I don’t want to.

When watching other people, like really physically watching or viewing other parts of the human being, we could watch them without judgement. What’s that? Not rating looks? Not swiping anywhere? Yeah really not doing any judging. What about trying to see who the person is and what she/he is saying. What’s her/his story is? Then people wouldn’t feel down, feel depressed, feel that they aren’t good enough. Because they are enough.

The story of you is more than enough.

Hay day

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We had this thing at the farm. It was a hot day and she was wearing red bikini top. She was jumping around and singing so beautifully. I could just watch and hear her all day. Her joy makes me smile every time. Even on a bad day. She was posing with everything and we came up with this pose for the next pinup. She was glad. It’s summer and it does show in her.
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Autumn Aurora’s Fresh Aromatic Apple Juice


The day I met Autumn came to my mind when we were making this painting. She smiled so beautifully. She was so cheerful and full of joy. Ever since we have been close friends. Later in that evening she managed to brake a tire of my bicycle. She was so cute when she was apologizing it. 

The shooting went well and we got a nice painting of that. We had an little arguement with Autumn, but I’ll tell you about that later. 

Her favorite beverage is of course apple juice. She has been making apple juice her whole life. She did a batch of Autumn Auroras Fresh Aromatic Apple Juice a while ago. She fell in love with that ans decided to sell it. The first batch was sold out straight away, so she made a bigger batch and wanted to make a poster to tell the people what great juice this is. She is really a girl you can trust. Oh, she is woman now… I’ve known her so long. When we were young.